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The expression "Imposter Syndrome" never played a part in my writing life when I was younger. I started writing when I was about 15. Before that, I wanted to be an animator, maybe working for Disney, or something like that. And then I started writing. I liked poetry, and fell in love with GUNGA DIN and Kipling's poetry. I tried to write like him. And then it was Tennyson and his IDYLLS OF THE KING, and I tried to write like him. And then my brother gave me a book by Edgar Rice Burroughs, and I thought, I can write fantasy. And so it went. I was always an imposter until I found my own voice, and my own style. And now I'm 65. Am I still an imposter? I never thought about it. It's taken me this long to think that I was good enough to put my own stuff out there and feel good about it. The thing is, I don't care if not everyone likes my stories. I have a following! I mean, me, an ex- blue collar worker with a grade 12 education sharing words with people who spent a lot of money on education. I think it all comes down to self-awareness. If I don't know something, I look it up. I've always liked history, so if I want to write about history, I look it up. Want to write a movie? There's lots of places online that will show you how. How about a play? I didn't know that the formatting was different from what you see in a book. I wrote a poetic novel when I got out of school because my parents asked me what I wanted to do. I told them I wanted to be a writer. They said, Okay, you can have a year off. They believed in me more than I believed in myself, and that helped a lot. So I wrote poems, and after writing a poem a day for three weeks, I got bored, and told myself I needed to tell a story. I wrote a book in ballad form: ROBIN HOOD. I spent a lot of time in libraries trying to figure it out. If ever there was an imposter, right? What right did I have to think I was a writer? I spend years writing novels, and then came up with an idea for an historical novel taking place in Ancient Rome. Back to the library. I called that my apprenticeship. I taught myself how to write one word at a time. So now I don't think of myself as an imposter, I think of myself as a writer in search of an audience. I feel confident in what I write and tell myself as long as the writing is good, as long as it doesn't feel like I'm forcing it, as long as I enjoy it, I am a writer. Anyone who spends every spare moment they have writing, has no right to think of themselves as an imposter. It's confidence in yourself, not conceit. It's a reckless abandon in knowing that you're no better, and no worse, than anyone else.

And now, I'm going to go and read that article...

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<Mary L. Tabor>'s avatar

I didn't actually know what this phrase "impostor syndrome" meant and that I might have it until I read this insightful piece that I interpret as the way we tend to put ourselves down in comparison to others who appear to be more successful. As a teacher of creative writing I often tell my students to remember how unique each of them is and give them a first sentence of a famous story to imitate. The imitations are always original and unique to the voice of the writer. When I read these, I must then remind myself of what I taught and learned. It's so easy to be discouraged by what we tend to view as a race to the finish line when what we need to do is stay in the game (as my horoscope told me today:)--not a particularly original thought--but sometimes the trite turns out to be true. xo for this encouraging post and the one on Medium, too. Karen.

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